I just came from cyberzone to pick up Scarlet. she's alive. though she has permanent amnesia-- all my files GONE. *sigh* It's allright, I'll start all over again. There's nothing I can do. The previous OS got corrupted and some of system registry was, whatever. lols
glad she's back and as cute as ever. mini. :) and I have my partition! har har har >:) so that whenever I need to reformat, all that needs to be reformatted is C: and my files which are saved in the partition are saved. nyahahaha. XD
Oh well. that's all for now. :p
Labels: alive, HP Mini Note, scarlet
Scarlet (my laptop) is not functioning. dammit. Something went hayware with the OS, it gets stuck on start up and doesn't even reach the desktop. It boots but I can't even run command prompt, I need to reformat/repair the OS but even though I have the recovery disc with me, it's useless since that mini note does'n't have a cd rom. argh! such hassle!
What's sad is that if it doesn't restore or repair the problem I will have it reformatted and LOOSE all my hardworked files. (Now I really wanna say SHIT MY THESIS.) now lesson learned, I should've made that damn partition so that my files are safe. I trusted so much. But then again, it wasn't only me who was using that mini. My sis is borrowing it too. She was the last one who used it before it went hayware. All she claims is that when the power had gone out, my laptop did too. (It has battery oh come on how could it possibly just turn off like that?)
no point arguing. Scarlet needs to be fixed or else I'll be dead too. >_<
note to self : buy external dvd rom, the one that is attachable via usb thingy. and buy external hard drive so I can back up all my files.
Labels: Computer, HP Mini Note, OS Problems, Rants, Software
I wanted to say I'm sorry, I'm not perfect I will never be. I feel bad, terribly. That no matter how hard I try, It is never enough. No matter how hard I try to make you notice It still wasn't enough. Am I asking for too much? I just wanted you to notice me smile. I just wanted you to feel me. To see me in my ups and downs. But You always seem to see me as someone who pulls you down. Someone negative, Someone who I am not. I'm sorry if I can never be who you wanted me to be. You say I am perfectly fine when I am being me but that is not how you make me feel, when I am being me, you make me feel like I shouldn't be. I always smile for your sake, but you only see the frowns. I look at you but you only see the tears. When I say something, you always believe that I meant it in a bad way but in fact I never did. You always seem to see something that is not me. You see somebody else. I wish you could see me, but it has been too much to ask already. If only I could wish enough. This not me, this is who you are making me.
I had lunch at the canteen today with some first year students. Makes me feel old, realizing how long I have been in the school and reminds me when I was a freshman. But it also feels nice to be looked up to and called "ate". These first year kids also reminded me of what I was when I was younger. Then bigla may isang girl nagtanong.
"Ate, bakit ganun ang mga lalaki, una nilang tinitignan ang physical appearance ng mga babae kaysa ugali..."
I said "hindi naman lahat, talagang mauuna mo naman talaga makita ang itsura ng tao bago yung ugali diba?" :p (I was trying to make common sense...lol)
"hindi ate eh, bakit yung iba yung boobs kagad tinitignan..."
I LOL'd. So I just said, "parang ganito lang yan, kung sa atin mga babae, mas una natin napapansin ang gwapo na dumadaan. diba pag may nadaan na guy una natin sinasabi 'uy may gwapo oh'. parang ganun nalang din sa lalaki, hindi rin naman boobs lang lahat ang nakikita nila. kapag may nakita ba tayo'ng lalaki eh nakikita ba natin kagad ugali? hindi diba? parang ganun lang din sa kanila.
Kikilalanin naman nila ang babae kapag natipuhan nila."
I remembered back in High School I asked the same exact words, but I got no answer. Seems now I have given myself an answer. :p so sometimes, I just have to wait patiently for answers. They're sure to come. :)
Nakakabadtrip at nakakainis at nakakaloko. Pinadalhan kami ngayong araw ng Disconnection Notice galing sa meralco. Puputulan daw kami ng kuryente sa october 25, 2009 kung hindi kami makakapag bayad bago mag october 25. at alam niyo ba kung magkano ang unpaid bill namin?
PhP 37.70 lang! LANG!!!
ang meralco cainta branch tuwing saturdays ay hanggang alas dose ng tanghali lamang. tapos, may exam pa ako bukas ng umaga, mga 10am ako matatapos. tapos kung pupunta ako sa meralco galing sa school mga 11am na ako makakarating sa meralco, pagdating dun... kamusta naman ang pila diba?
pipila ako para sa 37 pesos... =__=;
ang laking sagabal ng !@#$%^&* 37 pesos na yan.
(ngayon ko lang napagtanto na hindi lang ako ang may toyo sa mundo.)
Labels: meralco, rant, schedule bomber
This morning, I finished my final paper in partial fulfillment to my Phil. Literature subject. From the book we are using for this class, we have to pick one story/poem that has not been tackled up. (
aba, sa kapal ng librong to ang dami ko choices.) I had quite a hard time choosing a story, so I played with the book, I made it's edge lay flat on the table and whichever page it opens up when I let loose of it's sides, if there's a story or poem in that page, that's the one I'll be using for my paper.
So it did, it opened to a exactly at the first page of a story. titled, Sounds of Sunday by Kerima Polotan-Tuvera. The story was about a husband and wife's separation due to their differences. Husband was too obsessed with gaining a high position in his work, earning huge amounts of cash even if it meant cheating, bribing and pimping. Whereas the wife preferred a simple living, an honest one just as long as they are happy. The husband bought all the goods for his wife and children. Things they never imagined to have. The husband loved his wife indeed, but he wasn't able to understand that it wasn't what she needed. The husband paid too much time and effort in his work. His pride was more important than his family. Their indifferences caused them to fall apart, the wife left him along with the kids and returned to her hometown where she lived independently. As a year passed by, in her loneliness, she met someone who had made her feel what she needed to feel.
Love, can last for as how long we want, if we want to. But it is easy to fall out of love too. I can barely understand how love works now, it is great and at the same time it is the only thing that can hurt you so much. It was also said, to forget a past love you need to find a new one. Easily said, but in fact it is true. How people fall so fast and fall apart at the same speed they fell in love.
Recently, I was viewing my late friend's ex boyfriend. He has married a new girl and they seemed to be happy. I bet my friend's happy for him too. Though, it hasn't been a year since my friend died, but I think it doesn't matter now. People can move on so quickly, and everyone deserves to be happy isn't it?
Just that, I still can't seem to understand how fast-paced everything goes now, how two years can feel like two days, and how someone you fell badly in love with seemed like a stranger the next day. That you felt you were loved and the next day you were forgotten. I guess, people are just hungry to be loved. And they'll search for it as much as they can, they will look for comfort and replace what was lost as soon as they could.
I guess, and maybe, I'm beginning to understand what 'No Man is an Island' means.
OMG. I said that to myself countless times and my sister was sort of in-shock with the reaction I had, especially when those tears fell uncontrollably. She didn't expect me to react that way, I didn't expect it either. I was too happy and I couldn't believe myself that I'd get to read AGAIN, something that was part of my childhood. (
oo parang ang OA pero totoo talaga ang sinasabi ko! peksman!)
Back in my elementary days, when I used to slip a Culture Crash Comic book in my math book and pretend studying. (at ginagawa ko rin yun kapag kunwari nagrereview ako para sa exams. Peace tayo ma! :D) I used to do that everyday and never get tired re-reading my CCCom copies.
When I had my last copy, my cousin asked if he could have it for his birthday gift. I thought I could buy another copy so I gave him what he requested for. It was his birthday anyway. I didn't know it was the last I'll ever get to see a publication of CCCom. I looked everywhere and I seem not to find it. We didn't have internet back at home so there was no way for me to get updated. I thought-- damn, they're late for three months already. Later did it came to my mind that they had stopped the publication. I was broken hearted. (Oh nooo~ the only past time I have)
I took care of my copies, I had all of them complete. But years passed they became stored away in my memoir box. Then by bad luck, my copies of CCCom were ruined by the rain. :( I now only have three copies left. Culture Crash was the only local comic book I ever supported. I thought it was the last too (unless if my friend pursued her career then, :p) Yea I was bitter, but I had hopes. I attended conventions hoping to find signs of CCCom. But to no avail. I even planned cosplaying Clarissa (One Day Isang Diwa) or Mikaela. But my plans remained "plans" hahaha.
On the last CosMania that I attended, I saw a kubori kikiam cosplayer. I was pointing at that dick-looking mascot, but my sister didn't remember. "shet, si benjo yun ah, sa kubori kikiam ng culture crash!" I told my sis but she just nodded. (So, natahimik nalang ang lelang mo.) I went around and checked the booths there, baka may nagbebenta mga collectibles ng CCCom. Pero Wala. =( I went back to our booth and sold pancit nalang ulit. (yung mga nakaka alala sa violet haired na nagtitinda ng pancit sa pinaka dulo ng mga food booths. *ehem ehem* aysus feeling sikat naman ako), I also remembered Metro Comic Con, sa dinamidaming comics. Walang sign ng CCCom. Frustrated na talaga ako, I'll be graduating college soon. And CCCom was back in my elementary days. I just told myself, give up kate. CCCom's an epic memory nalang. It's one of Philippine's pioneer (anime inspired) comics... and it's been years. (Nagbabakasakali nalang ako may magbebenta sakin ng complete issues ng CCCom. promise I'll buy it!)
but my happy days are back :D I am now holding copies of Cat's Trail Rewind and Spotlight. :D
oh diba? parang sakto lang! kung kelan halos sumuko na ako sa paghihintay, bigla sila dumating! They caught my fall may tema! ang cheesy! (tanga ko lang di ako nagsearch sa net adik. hahaha may blog pala si Sir Elmer Damaso, the creator of CT.) yeah, I am a die hard fan. So I think pwede ko na istalk ulit si taga ilog. Especially now na kilala daw siya ng friend ko in person, taga binangonan daw? Salamat Emon at nakilala kita :D
P.S.
Sabog ako, galing ako sa OJT wala pa akong tulog dahil sa mga lintek na thesis at research paper at sobrang daming demands ng school. Hindi na matagalan ng utak ko mag english, at antok na ako. Nag aadik pa ako ngayon sa facebook at shemay, moderator pala ako sa chichiraku.org need ko na magparamdam! EXAMS NA BUKAS!!! waaaaaaaaaa!!
(binasa ko to ulit, ang daldal ko pala kapag bangag. T_T)
Hello there earthlings,my name is Kate. and thank you for landing upon my blog.
do rememeber to leave a tag alright. And it'll be appreciated.
I am energetic and courageous.
I stand up for my beliefs and for what I desire.
I am independent, strong willed and
fiercely competitive when needed
although my ambition is tempered with patience.
I love playing around but I tend to overdo it. :p
Nakakabadtrip at nakakainis at nakakaloko. Pinadalhan kami ngayong araw ng Disconnection Notice galing sa meralco. Puputulan daw kami ng kuryente sa october 25, 2009 kung hindi kami makakapag bayad bago mag october 25. at alam niyo ba kung magkano ang unpaid bill namin?